Camila Cabello is expressing her thoughts on the culture of paparazzi.
On Saturday, the former member of Fifth Harmony shared her frustrations about how constantly being pH๏τographed without her consent has negatively impacted her self-esteem.
Cabello, began her lengthy post by saying that she would always get “papped” every time she went to “this beach club in Miami.”
“Somehow when I check in paps know and get me in my ʙικιɴι and every time I’ve felt super vulnerable and unprepared,” she wrote. “I’ve worn ʙικιɴιs that were to [sic] small and paid no mind to how I looked, then saw pictures online and comments and been so upset.”
The “Havana” singer then admitted that she’s “a single woman in her 20s” who is going through “a s—t ton of promo” and wants to “feel like I look ‘good.’ ”
Therefore, prior to a recent outing to the beach over the weekend, Cabello shared she prepared herself by wearing a new ʙικιɴι, putting on lip gloss, and “didn’t eat anything too heavy” because she knew her trip to the ocean was going to be “basically a whole pH๏τoshoot.”
“I held my core so тιԍнт my abs hurt and didn’t breathe and barely smiled and was so self conscious of where the paps were the whole time,” she wrote. “I couldn’t let go and relax and do what we’re meant to do when we go out into nature.”
Though she knew she looked “good” in the pictures after putting in all the efforts to accomplish the goal, she revealed, “I’ve never had a worse time at the beach. I felt the emptiness and sadness of our culture’s thoughts that became my thoughts.”
Cabello stressed in the post that she wanted to discuss the subject due to society’s preference for focusing on appearance over the state of one’s mental health.
“What is health if you are so fixated on what your body looks like that your mental health suffers and you can’t enjoy your life?” she pondered. “Who am I trying to look attractive for and am I even attractive to myself if I can’t let loose and relax and have fun and be playful on a beautiful day at the beach?”
After sharing that she is still “not at the point” in her journey to “not give a f—,” Cabello said she is aware that, “Intellectually, I know what I look like doesn’t determine how healthy, happy, or Sєxy I am.”
“Emotionally, the messaging I get from our world is loud in my own head,” she concluded. “Ironically, all the therapy, all the inner work is to try and get back to feeling like 7-year-old me on the beach. I’m mourning her today, happy, silly, breathing, pretending to be a mermaid, FREE.”
